Day 7... (Or is it Day 3?)

Weight: 188.8

The discouraging part about this is that I am just getting to the weight I started my MC at last time.

Ok, so it's been a few day. I have weighed myself everyday however, and have stayed strong. But I had a breakdown Sunday night, Day 4 and CHEATED :(

I had stayed strong - but because of church missed one of my usual times for the lemonade. When we got home from church, the kids and I made home-made tortillas and had chicken fajitas. It looked and smelled delicious. I did not give in. I sat at the table with my family, sipping my lemonade while they ate.
Later that night I made banana bread to use up some bananas gone bad and to put in the kids' school lunches for the next day.  It was getting to be late, kids were in bed and I was tired. I cut open a loaf of banana bread and I just had a slice, followed by another slice.  The next day I was pretty remorseful and filled with regret.
So far, this has been my only cheat, so I guess that's good. However, the more I read about the MC I realize that it takes 10 days of not eating to fully cleanse and detox. So, I am going back and forth on weather I start again, making Day 5 really be Day 1..... We will see...

I have realized the importance of staying in the moment. Sometimes when I think ahead to how far I still have to go, I get discouraged (like what happened on Sunday night). There can be a lot of self deprivation on the MC and I can only take so much. So, rather than think what day I am on or how much further to go, I have been trying to only focus on how I am doing today.

I find my self doing a lot of food preparation for my family. Yesterday I made rolls, oatmeal cookies, home-made potato chips and pasta. I keep my lemonade on hand and do fine. However, the later it gets the more my cravings kick in. I have decided while I am doing the cleanse, I should not stay up late. Go to bed within 3 hours of having my last lemonade!

The last thing I have learned is to drink the lemonade every 2 hours - no matter what. This helps my body know it can depend on regular nourishment and that it doesn't need to hold on to my weight for dear life. I realize that my body has gone through a fair bit of "life-style-changes" and think it would benefit the boosting of my metabolism post cleanse to eat something every 2 hours.

I have walked a few times in the cold weather. Hope to keep it up.